scanty

i gotta be crazy.

I LOVE...

my bestfriend, for always being sucha bitch.. she's petty, whiney and complains too much sometimes. but thats only her, so her... right angel lim?

my saturday goer, for always going crazy over LAME stuff that we both know what! for always being a listening ear and my personal naggy granny.. right jacqueline chiang?

my G family, for being there when no one saw me. for being da strong tower of support. i love you, love you, love you so.. right geraldine lim?

my cousin, for being sucha spastic fart. and late night walker. truly ; one call away. youre so like me.. right jacel lin?

my soulmate, you are love in da name of everything. you know it all without me having da open my mouth. right jacilyn woo? (see your name) i told you youre my favourite girl!!

becca ; i miss those days.. those days.. those days.pleaes always say youre free for me.

I MISS..

claudia ; pornstar.. where'd you go? i miss you so, seems like it's neen forever.

amanda ; you were da closest, closest closest closest.

I LOST..

victoria ; i think two years back.
nothing's changed, as much as ever.
enough said.

thats so much for today!

XOXOXO

will i sell my gucci for school?

FUCK!

it was once broken, too broken this time round ;
build a wall around you.

stand strong ;
alone.

smile to da world, keep it within yourself.
crumble.

I WANNA WAKE UP WHERE YOU ARE.

I miss being greeted by sunshine,
surrounded by trees.
one and only ; Tuas D.

Baby, i love you
(=

yays!

I'll give up everything da be where you are.

Poor BIG woo bao, while little bao is flying around.
you gotta crack every brain cell on FYP.

I miss you, miss you, miss you
and
miss you more.

Pek, youre da only thing in my life that makes sense. You'll do everything i dream to be complete. Everything ; to see da smile on my face. Everything, anything at all.

SO TRUE BEFORE ME.

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
it's impossible to ignore you
must you make me laugh so much
it's bad enough we get along so well

We'd be good, we'd be great together.
say goodnight and go

Theres a light in your eyes,
will you leave da light burning for me?

Dont judge us.
people that have nothing.. nothing to do with this.
cos this love i have will last through a lifetime with ; pek.

"each time i fall.. i wont allow myself to fall for too long. cos i gotta be stronger than you are ; to catch your falls"
those were da words apart from the common three words, closest to heart.
"till old and frail,..........."
those were da promises you made, closer than close to heart.

If you insist, if you have to know ;
i dont think we've made a mistake.

Somehow you always find a way da see da best in me.
crazy beautiful ; us.

Theres so much i have da say..
How much are you willing da listen?

Theres so much she can do,
theres so much i can avoid..

Am sorry for da many countless blah blah blah... am trying, maybe to you ; it aint hard enough. but theres only so much i can do. theres only so much you can choose da understand or dwell in da past.

I aint no saint.
and i know thats not what you want..
but if i aint the girl you want me to be,
my apology.

---

(I wanna go to da states now.
Someone.. anyone.. bring me da Victoria Secrets.
I wanna SHOP!)

My eye is so itchy.

I hate it whenever i have da stay up da mug, blame it on myself..i cant go on readng.
its so ITCHY )=

iwishyouwerehere
ineedahug,ineedyoursmiledakeepmegoing.
i..missyou.

am sorry, pek.

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I swore to my soul, to never hurt you again. In my heart, there's no space for another.
Truly, Madly, Deeply.. in love with you.

. I SOLD MY SOUL FOR PEK SO LOW .

DID I TELL DA WORLD ; HOW MUCH I ADORE MY MOMMY!
not when she's nagging or bitching about my dressing.. moving away from those ; I LOVE HER, so much, so so much..

Shopping makes gerlynn a happy girl.
PEK ; of cos, you make gerlynn happier!

gerlynn fancies shopping, preeeeeeeeetty things and yes yes, more shopping pleaseeee.
(that's suppose da be irritating) yet how true (=

Cramps equals to da mother of hatessss!
)=

Its da crowd that am staying away from.
Leading indifferent lives ; those days will always remain as sweetest memories. i dont wanna make believe that There'll always be a bond. it died da very day i left you girls (=
Four seven ; pure joy.

Those days with DIA ; about S.ho and how we used da stick.
(howwe'll alwayd tour around school, bitching about everyone else ; BITCH)

Those days with JAC ; our saturdays, every saturdays.. birthdaysss.
(how you used da pack my table, a space next to you and da hangouts after school)

Those days with LOB ; our private joke, secrets that no one knows. how everyone wanted us apart.
(gerlynn and angel, cannot sit together.. gerlynn and anhel... gerlynn and angel)

Those days with MEL ; gerlissa.
(more than enough said ; we were closer than close)

Those days with GERI ; G family.. how we'll stand in front of mirrors comparing whos fatter ; stomach power!
(please do not forget our date.. one strong pillar)

Those days with BEV ; we shisha`d and drank and tttttaaaaaaaallllllllkkkkk.. my listening ear
(feel good factor during exams. hahaha. have you been a good beano?)

Those days with DOOKS ; oreo.. wheres my cookie? wheres my cookie?
(you ; bloodly stealer, laughter surrounded us)

Those days with JUN ; lovebirds will yake and yake non-stop about row and jas.
(science lab lessons were fun cos i had you, am so glad we didn't burn it down)

Those days with DEE ; homebuddy and geo answer friend.
(dee, you heard all my whines)

Those days with VON ; i'll go on and on non-stop about jas and how you were always around da take all my shit
(for all da hugs, da loving and care *smiles*)

Those days with RARA ; da never ending spastic ways.
(raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

Those days with RS ; i'll never forget who went on bus ride with me da look for my lost pouch.
(smarty pants, you were always a help`g hand in so many ways)

Those days with CHUCKY ; to ikea and your place.. primary school.. da so so many encouragements.
(hows weak heart? and that bitch in messy bitch we've been talking about?.. hahahha)

Those days with ROZ, JayDee, YING and da so so many others.

I miss saint marg's, i really do.

Brown nametag, i was head over heels.
you were my happy pill, da reason why i went da school for.
i love you ; pek.

And I LOVE ALL OF YOU GIRLS
(=

Ive got a OOOOHHHH so special journal.

Love, your face and mine keeps appearing here, there and everywhere.
hahaha.
remember chinatown heritage? *smiles*

PS : my sell site - scantyricegrain.livejournal.com

Jacq bought Princess Aurora
*smiles*

I fear for my jeans ; in the hands of - 'witch' (jacq)
aaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!

I ate so much so much today, am i growing
; FAAAAAT?

I swear to all of you ; Just My Luck is also close da perfect.
ohwells, so is peking duck pizza..

Things to die for (=

PEEEEEK, not enough shopping today.
are you gonna fund my shopping spree?

BELLE ; sold da lob...
SNOW WHITE ; da vicky?
who's next?

Am not capable bringing on da smiles.

Am sorry for da facade that probably misled you into believing. Am human afterall, i know that gives no excuse for lies.
but sometimes..i really feel so terrible towards her. as much as you think its at your expense, i never did for one moment thought of hurting you.

Am sorry that i aint like who i was four years back, i guess we've both changed.
In fact i think we swooped roles.

Youre truly unbelievable.
DID YOU JUST QUESTION MY FEELINGS THEN?

Go on doubting, cos then...
you were da world to me.
then.. i'll have done anything da be with you.
you didnt ask ; thats all.

Yet then.. it didnt matter to you.
Dont you fucking dare doubt how i felt then, cos it was you who wasnt for real!

Set your eyes away, look elsewhere.

I wont boast about my wonderful day.
but am smiling smiling smiling..

a. you
b. skin colour love
c. DHL trip

simplicity is beauty
<3

You have been everything i asked GOD for.
all that i want and need..i find them in you.

Pek, you see da wrecked me so often till you probably mistook da one you fell for.
you hear da endless whines about everything..anything..under the sun.
da bitching about every little thing i dislike (yes,i know i'l get reeeaaallllyyy bad karma)
you've been da best personal chair with special arm 'lock' and extra increase in comfort level.

for da many times we laughed till tears filled our eyes.
for da many times we never fail da take the longer route.
for da many times we love to 'bang' ourselves.
for da many times we pretended not to care (yet..it's beyond control)
for da many times we fall perfectly into each other's arms after our silly roooows.

i wanna go on and on.. on and on.. on and on ;
holding you,
teasing you,
loving you.

//cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
i can't keep my eyes off of you.

1..2..3..4

*smiles*

I SAW FISHBALL FACE.
hahaha. wigeon, its been a while.. i miss you love *pukes* its funny how things been so calm, keep your cool. you look prettier with your mouth shut (=

nobody said its gonna be easy,
we'll start from scratch.

kiddos dating
<3

FIRST BAG CHARM. yay yay yay!

Someday it'll all make sense.
Then again ; maybe not.

I guess thoughts of such will always be lingering in your head
and for that ; am truly sorry.
honey dont speak, i understand(i do) very much in fact..
but
am so tired of pointing fingers, so tired of explaining.
da only difference between our deception ; da year, month, date and time.

You wont like it if i play bitch.
If you never did, i'll never have to. if you never did, i'll never getta know them. if you never did, i probably wont be da way i am.
you were da one that permitted changes.
you were da one that made me realize ; you'll never reap what you sow. you were da one i loved most, yet disappointed me da most. you were da only reason why i went to school for yet da only reason why i dread going to school. you sent my world crashing da day you left for ......., da day you fell for .....
all these years.. it still feels like a raw wound.

Dont tell me how disheartening it is, i know it all.

Please, no more diatribe..my answers will never be good enough.
if you claim so much in da name of 'loving'..
exonerate me da same way i did ; you
iflovingsurpasswrongdoings.

All these years youve been nothing more than just dream, yet fate played a game with us.
Now that you mean da world to me, all i ask for is simplicity.
Its been way too complicated.

Its no longer as easy as it seemed then.
in fact, it takes so much more effort than i thought..patience and so much more of such along those lines.
am also done with a theme of them ; five in total. with a few addition (=
i need more beads, more charms and...da list goes on.

Mushroom is finally awake! i dont deny that am solicitous towards you, but these days you seem da be pigging more than enough. JOGS? hahaha. you'll just keep growing fatter..fatter..till you explode!
Your alter ego wont even be nice for once da sing for me? i ABOMINATE jessie girl, da inner you.

In a few, when mushroom gets her smelly little ass here. i'll be doing my ad (school stuff sucks)..
am running outta time.
woooooooooooooooooooooot!